Thoughts/Impressions.

[Chelsia]

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[Chelsia]

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[Chelsia]

oh, boy.

that bitch April better pray that I get evicted this week or she's got another thing coming.

I can not, CAN NOT, wait for the game to be over and Nakomis to realize how stupid she is.

all the convos that I showed were completely real, and that "message" from April NEVER happened. she is suuuch a little liar. all I have to say is me and Keesha both can't leave this week, and if one of us wins POV neither of us will be leaving, so those bitches better watch their backs.

if you want to come at me cuz I'm a threat, or cuz I nominated you, or whatever that's cool. but not because I lied about something that was 110% true. Nakomis is a fucking moron, April has completely lied to her. I just can't wait to see how stupid she is going to feel.

[Chelsia]

Boogie - really nice person. haha I heart Lemon, too bad he didn't get to chill with us longer.

Alex - whateva. never really look the time to get to know each other.. I wanted his ass evicted over mine anyways.

Diane - such a great person, unfortuntely who just didn't really have her head in the game. really sweet.

Daniele - hilarious. calls it like it is. some people may thing she's a cruel bitch or whatever, I respect it.

Natalie - idk. never talked to her.

Jase - haha Evan. my bff again. unless he secretely hates me still

Erika - rude, selfish, annoying, bitchy tranny. I thank the fuckin bb gods every day that she's gone.

Jun - um, what a bitch.

Angie - she seemed really nice and honest, but, apparently that was rude and fake.

Howie - awesome person. love him. I don't appreciate some strategic errors he made or that he betrayed me quite a few times and apparently his being mean to me on HC, but he's still hilarious and I adore him.

Richard - went from liking him to hating him to liking him to hating him to.. you catch my drift? this was on a weekly basis too. nah jk. but seriously he was a total drama queen and really needed to get a clue, but he was still nice never avoided me [at least I don't think] plus he was like the least threatening person ever, so it was always super easy to talk to him haha.

Sheila - I really like her. I hope she feels the same. she's a really nice person, and she can see the difference in game stuff and personal stuff. everyone who left this game like haaaated me and I pretty much evicted her ass but I don't think she hates me.. so yeah she's mature, funny, and a sweet person.

April - bitch. she acts all sweet and innocent, but she's just a liar. and she's like never herself in a conversation with me and that really bugs me. she seems really spoiled too, and like she has to have peoples attention or she's unhappy.

James - such a sweet girl. seriously doesn't have a mean bone in her body from what I've known of her.

Keesha - aw I love Keesha. I think she's misunderstood. we can be a little bratty sometimes, but she's a cool person.

Nakomis - opinion changes every day. I think she's trying to be nice and just have a good time and get along with everyone, but at the same time she really craves the attention. she's really gullible as well.

Roddy - haha he seems like he would be a riot, but I don't know him like at all.

Sarah - hm, while I still consider her one of my main targets, she's nice. I thought she was fake in the past, but I think like Sheila she sees past the game bullshit and will still get along with people. I like that she's upfront and not fake like alot of people. I personally don't think her gameplay was really great this year... but I'd rather her win over a few other people.

Will - aw I heart Will. I think he's hilarious, and even though it pisses me off sometimes, he can always make me laugh when I'm worried, upset, etc and that's like the number one thing I like about people. I don't know if it's just for the game, but he usually always gets along with everyone. and even though everyone says they know his whole game now, I still think he's underestimated and totally deserves to win this game.

[Chelsia]

YEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.

I GOT WILL TO KEEP KEESHA. YAAAAAAY.

thank the effin' lord. THANK GOD.

[Chelsia]

aw, I'm kinda bored this week. someone needs to stir up some shit. sad thing is, people are too afraid and there's no one left to stir up shit with. hell, I don't want to. final six, bitch.

I hope Nakomis starts some drama on her way out. even if she says stuff that I don't like.

[Chelsia]

hmm. well. I have a couple thoughts on the POV ceremony, LOL so I'm gonna kinda answer my own DR question here.

Keesha... 100% trying to get votes in that ceremony. especially since she tells me constantly how much she hates Nakomis, and then says oh I love you guys. she knows Nakomis is leaving, and she tried to grab that vote. I don't blame her, I'm doing the exact same thing... but she did it so outspokenly... I'm gonna have to talk to Nakomis even more. LOL

that girl knows what she's doing though. she's gonna try and get Will, possibly myself, to do everything from here on out so she can swoop in and grab their jury votes... the thing is... that's my strategy. from a talk with James... I think she's trying to get them to take out Will as well. I think she wants to get to final three with me and James... and assumes both of us would take her and she can throw that final HOH.. and then win against both of us. but um, that's what I'm doing.

however, I think if she were to win that final hoh, she would take James with her, as she probably thinks she'd have a better shot at beating him. and that plan could probably work for her... but unfortuntely she doesn't have the alliance with James that I have... so it's going to be more successful for me.

and it really makes me nervous about being in the final three with her and James... because if she wins it, I really don't think she's going to take me. not one bit. and I have to look out for myself.

the thing is Keesha and I played a very similiar game so far, I think. and I love her.. but she's very close-minded about alot of things, and looks at everything in very conventional way. I think her biggest problem was that she always assumed they would be there and she didn't try to really solidify relationships beyond the four-person alliance. or she did it with the wrong people. she took everything week by week sort of. we both want the same f4... but I think all four of us have different plans if we get there.

obviously, I want Will, James, Keesha, and myself in the final four. here's my perfect, ideal plan...

Nakomis leaves.
I win HOH and nominate Roddy & April...
someone else wins POV and leaves it the same.
Roddy leaves. Will wins HOH the following week,
nominates April and one of us three...
we vote out April.

the tricky thing is, if James or Keesha win instead... Will may not vote out April... he might vote out James. and I don't think he'll try to win that week, he'll be safe with everyone.

then we have final four...

I win HOH. nominate...
James and Will probably. really it doesn't matter.
I throw POV obvs.
someone evicts someone.
one of the two left wins HOH,
and takes me to the final two.



unfortuntely, things never go perfectly. or at least, they don't just fall in to place... I have to MAKE them work perfectly.

my main thing is that while securing the final four that I want, I need to get jury votes... make it look like I DON'T have jury votes... to get the people that I'm with to take me. if I win that HOH and I'm with two of the three.. I've automatically just lost a jury vote. I really don't want to win that final hoh unless I NEED to.

haha I probably said all that already, but I like to map it out to think about what I'm doing. =]

[Chelsia]

"CHELSIA: OMG GIRL WE HAVE HAD SOME TIMES BUT TRUTH BE SAID I LOV YOUR FUCKING ASS I DO U KEEP IT REAL AND I LOV THAT I NOW WHERE YOUR VOTE IS GOING SO I'M NOT EVEN GOING TO TRIP ROCK ON BITCH(IN A GOOD WAY) "



yaaaay.

[Chelsia]

wow.

I am SCREWED.

Will is suuuuuuuch a little bitch. I fucking hate him right now. he's a fucking liar. I am soooo going to win this HOH. PLEASE. lol

[Chelsia]

lmfao. what a joke, right?

it's pretty funny though. and it does make me excited that I'm the last person standing of "REDJAC". that's pretty cool. though I wish some of them were still here with me.

[Big Brother]

I lol'd when he told me to add that to the list

[Chelsia]

LMFAO!

me too. he pasted what you said "you want that as your avatar?" I started cracking up.

oh and another thing to comment on... we've tried to hide how close we were the entire game, and now he's just willing to be like "oh FINAL TWO WITH CHELSIA" that's a dead giveaway that he's true loyalty isn't to me. hell, he doesn't have true loyalty to anyone... except himself. but he knows it will be easier to beat them in competitions and in the end... rather than me & Keesha.

I know he just went to April saying "I just did that to get her to trust me again"... and I told him that I knew he would say that. LOL

well basically I need to get my emotions out of this. I can't beat Will.. he's using me until it no longer benefits him again. and ya know, if he's my true friend then he'll practice what he preaches and will be friends with me still after this is over.

I want him out. him or April this week. at first I wanted him to stay and help us to get out April & Roddy.. but he won't. he's not going to do anything, he wants everyone to take each other out.. probably leaving him and Nakomis so he can win.

and April pretty much told me he told her she was my target... to pin us against each other. lol and he admitted it. along with alot of other shit he did. how stupid would I be to believe him again? like I said, emotions aside... I can't make that mistake again.

Keesha showed me this... thought it was pretty funny and totally true.

After all you put me through, you'd think I'd despise you. But in the end I want to thank you, because you made me that much stronger.

When I, thought I knew you, thinking, that you were true. I guess I, I couldn't trust, called your bluff, time is up 'cause I've had enough.

You were, there by my side, always, down for the ride. But your, joy ride just came down in flames 'cause your greed sold me out of shame, mmhmm.

After all of the stealing and cheating, you probably think that I hold resentment for you, but, uh uh, oh no, you're wrong. 'Cause if it wasn't for all that you tried to do. I wanna know just how capable I am to pull through. So I wanna say thank you

'Cause it makes me that much stronger, makes me work a little bit harder. It makes me that much wiser. So thanks for making me a fighter. Made me learn a little bit faster, made my skin a little bit thicker, makes me that much smarter. So thanks for making me a fighter

Never, saw it coming, all of, your backstabbing. Just so, you could cash in on a good thing before I realized your game
I heard, you're going around, playing the victim now. But don't, even begin feeling I'm the one to blame 'cause you dug your own grave.

After all of the fights and the lies, yes you wanted to harm me but that won't work anymore. Uh, no more, oh no, it's over.
'Cause if it wasn't for all of your torture I wouldn't know how to be this way now, and never back down. So I wanna say thank you

How could this man I thought I knew, turn out to be unjust so cruel. Could only see the good in you, pretended not to see the truth. You tried to hide your lies, disguise yourself.
Through living in denial, but in the end you'll see... YOU-WON'T-STOP-ME

I am a fighter and I ain't goin' stop. There is no turning back I've had enough.

anyways. so either Roddy/April or April/Will goes up this week. either way, one of the three leaves, unless Will isn't nominated and takes off April. if it stays and he gets April out like I asked... well then I will have some trust in him... but for this game... I won't trust him again. he's awesome and a good friend. he's a great person, he'll just do anything to win this game. he's like a obsessed with it. he's played a great game and I respect his gameplay. I don't hate him and I'll still chat with him about TONY ROMO and stuff... but that doesn't mean I'm going to continue doing what I've been doing unless he takes out every single one of them for me. ... I want me/Keesha f2.

[Chelsia]

now this is really my last DR for the night. =]

I'm feeling really good about this huge move right now. even if it doesn't work out, I'd be content with getting evicted after this. in large part due to the respect & applause that we've gotten from people not playing... for doing the one thing that no one could or would. annnnd, especially I want to thank you KC... because you personally reallly got my head in this game, at least way more than it was.

so yeah. I'm feeling good about this, I hope for the best and if it doesn't work out, well then I'm just proud of myself and of Keesha.

[Chelsia]

uhoh.

it's rant time.



Will is SO. fucking. frustrating. like, seriously! SORRY if I think your plan is a peice of shit, I'm gonna tell you. especially when it could very well be at my expense! it really pisses me off when people are like "oh what do you think?" "any ideas? comments?" and then shoot down everything that you're saying.

and saying I don't give a fuck if he was evicted or not... that is COMPLETTE bullshit. um that was the hardest decision I've made this entire game. I was up until 2am figuring things out, reading shit, talking myself & Keesha into keeping him. and then went I go home the next day what did I do... sat there trying to come up with 500 different ways to get Nak's vote so Will could stay. bull fucking shit I didn't care if he left or not.

and I'm not setting him up for anything! okay maybe I thought about evicting Roddy, because that would be better for ME, sorry if I'm playing the same way you are... I'm just a little less obvious about it. boo fucking hoo.

and he's always like "oh you guys don't get how I play, you guys bitch me out for what I do, you guys don't understand..." BULLSHIT. I've been telling him for a long. long. long. time that he's an amazing player in my opinion and he definitely deserves to win over everyone and how much I respected his game. just cuz I don't do everything he does, or agree with it all... doesn't mean I think it's horrible. gah.

and like every single day since then, which has only been like two or three but still... I've said that I'm afraid he's mad at me and I'm really sorry and all this shit and he's like "I don't give a shit. I like being nominated. I seriously don't care." or whatever else bullshit he can come up with. and then boom, one little thing and he's like "I'M PISSED ABOUT LAST WEEK, I SHOULDN'T HAVE TO SAVE MYSELF" gah. well he shouldn't have pulled that shit with James' eviction in the first place. and he purposely avoided getting on that day... which pissed me off even more and lead us to believe he was against us. so yeah... NOT MY FAULT.

and.. that comment about being worried about my own ass? hell yes I am, who isn't? the nominations this week are just proof that he doesn't give a shit if we go or not, it's only his ass he's worried about. don't try to turn it on me if I'm doing the same thing. I'm not like blaming him for it, I've known he's been doing it all along. and hell, I have too. hello... alliance with James anyone? instant friends with jury members anyone? [which btw, 3/5 "Chelsia ftw" people makes me really happy. I think if Will was gone, I'd have 4/5. =] justsayin.]

anyways. um. I think that's it.

OH. and when I asked him about the "you don't give a fuck if I go home" comment.. he goes... "I have doubts." GTFO with that shit.

anyways. that's really it. wow, been a long time since I had a pyscho rant that didn't make sense.

[Chelsia]

"I have nothing nice to say to any of you except good luck to Chelsia"

LMFAO.

wtf?



that one has got to be a joke. I haven't even talked to him. EVER. with Sheila, James, and Sarah - I get them all rooting for me because I tried to make that happen. Nakomis... I understood a little bit cuz with me & her we have always talked and been friends despite what's going on... but still I haven't been the nicest person to her, so I was a little suprised about Nakomis rooting for me.

and now Roddy likes me too? LOL. I never even talk to him, or be nice to him, and I've wanted him out for weeks. and it's not like I have the type of personality where people naturally love me. LOL not believing that one. maybe he's trying to make it look like the jury is rooting for me so people don't take me.

[Chelsia]

welll.. that really sucks. looks like I'm done if I don't win POV. =[

oh btw... does the person evicted this week still get a HC interview even though theres only a week left?

[Chelsia]

chelsiaxhart (2:45:44 PM): so i have a question..
chelsiaxhart (2:45:51 PM): why did you decide we should get rid of roddy?
chelsiaxhart (2:46:06 PM): actually rephrase..
chelsiaxhart (2:46:17 PM): why did you decide keesha should come off and roddy should go up?
DrWill chilltown (2:47:21 PM): whyd u rephrase that question?
chelsiaxhart (2:47:31 PM): lmao cuz i asked it wrong
DrWill chilltown (2:47:38 PM): no u didnt
DrWill chilltown (2:47:44 PM): I wanted Roddy gone
DrWill chilltown (2:47:53 PM): I wasn't gona save Nakomis and put Roddy up there
DrWill chilltown (2:47:56 PM): that would be weird
DrWill chilltown (2:48:05 PM): and I did it
DrWill chilltown (2:48:12 PM): cause its a better shot of us 3 in final 3
DrWill chilltown (2:48:24 PM): if I wanted to make a selfish move I would have kept roddy
chelsiaxhart (2:48:45 PM): oh i know

here's the thing, what he said is right. the selfish move would have been to keep Roddy... but since when has Will not played this game for himself? he ALWAYS puts himself first sometimes at our expense... so what maks now any different? nothing. unless his personality just did a 180 and he decided to look out for the group as a whole rather than just himself, which I don't see happening... then something happened with him & Keesha.

and then conversations with Keesha... she kept asking me questions about Will last week obviously like she was afraid he was closer to me than her. and she kept talking about him going soon... she even said if Roddy went it would be us three vs Will. and the past two days she hasn't talked any strategy with me, the only thing she's said is that Will made a move for the group finally.

LOL this wasn't supposed to happen, it should be happening how I want it. lol and it would be if I had just won the POV and saved Keesha rather than Will.

anyways... cat's out of the bag now. I want me and...

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Will.

crazy right? I know. I can think of a few people who would [and some who probably are] call me stupid for that, but ohwells. we've played this game together since week two, he's always been "my person" and if I can't win I want him too. Keesha is a great person who I hope to still be friends with after this, but I just don't feel like she deserves to win... not as much as Will. and... I was thinking about it... if Will evicts Keesha and I don't have to, and the final two was me & Will... I think I would have three votes locked in. I'd just need one more. and if it doesn't happen, well then I lost to the best.

and then I was thinking about final 3, rather than final 2. because I really feel right now as though I'm not going to win that final HOH if I stay. if I were to win POV this week. Nakomis... isn't gonna take me. I got that already. but, she's not an option to go this week so end of that.

Will... I'm kind of 50/50. it's clear that he has a better shot of beating Nak than me, but hopefully he thinks that he would beat either one of us and do what he's said he's gonna do the entire game... take me to the final 2. plus, hopefully he thinks he'd lose my vote. =]

Keesha... I'm like 75% sure she wouldn't take me. I could be allll wrong about this and her DR is just me & Chelsia final two, but I just don't feel like it is. I really think if us three girls are final two and she wins HOH... she'll take Nakomis.

it's probably a big mistake. but oh well, I can't talk myself out of wanting me & Will final two. so in a perfect world he would win POV and evict Keesha. if not, Nakomis wins POV and keeps it the same, Will evicts Keesha. if not, then I win POV and evict Keesha. the problem is, I'm only sure of 1/3 of those. Will would probably evict me and I have a feeling Nak might change her noms. but, I need to win POV anyways cuz Keesha & Will are probably taking each other.

gah. anyways. I'm done rambling. I wish SOMEONE would ask me a DR question so I stop talking to myself in here


my love. DALLAS FTW.

[Chelsia]

I am going to LOL when Sarah votes for Will! based off what I've read & heard...

that'd be like voting for Dustin over herself last season. saying that Dustin played a better game than her.

[Chelsia]

oops, I decided I needed one last dr because I'd rather say this here to be read later.

Kathleen, go kiss my ass.

LOL at you trying to turn my friends against me, the worst being Howie. especially telling Howie about my alliance with James and Will trying to get him evicted from my dr.

fuck you. Evan liked me better and evicted you, get the fuck over it. that game was retarded anyways. it's not like I did anything to you, I just wasn't a bitch to him 24/7. and here... I got you evicted, too bad so sad. you told 500 people you were coming after me, and never once talked to me personally. it's not like you're the only person I evicted from the house. I don't see anyone else acting like a two year old. seriously whatever your problem is with me, how bout move on & grow the fuck up? you say it's not Evan... well it's either a) Evan liked me better or b) Howie liked me better. GET OVER IT. are you seriously that immature that you're going to hate me with a passion for no reason? this is retarded. haha we're actually alot alike, and have interest in alot of the same things. too bad.

I'm stating this here because

a) I'd prefer you to not ever talk to me alone unless you're going to act mature and explain why you hate me so much and feel like need to talk shit about me every chance you get.
b) thank the lord you're apparently not going to be at the wrap party because there's a tiny chance I will win and you couldn't stand to see that happen
c) you'll just work even harder at making me lose 0-7 if I told you to your face. oops.

everyone else... <3.

[Chelsia]

damn, I thought I was done writing.

LOL at Nakomis. gawd. the stupidity of the human race, everyone. example right there. which is another reason I'm deathly afraid of the upcoming election, because of brainless people like her who our voting for the person who will have our country in their hands. come on. I just don't know how else I'm supposed to explain these things to her. it's like talking to my 11 year old brother. no, worse. to my 7 year old cousin. and she's 20 years older than me with children. good lord. she makes no sense, she contradicts everything that she says, and now she just generally gets on my last nerve. at this point, I don't even want her vote. she can shove it up her ass. if I were to lose 4-3 knowing her vote could have made me win... we'll I'll be content with 2nd place. she doesn't understand this game [in general] at all, nor does she even understand or remember the things that happened in this paticular season. I can't campaign for a vote without being able to have an intelligiant conversation... and Nakomis certainly can't have an intelligiant conversation. so I'm done with that. at this point, I'm just ready for this game to be over whether I win or lose [yay at the fact that I did better than the rest of them, especially Jun & Nakomis]. bring on URTV4! House Calls, yay. haha.